So another school year has begun and I sit now looking back over the past few months and am truly and utterly amazed at all that has happened!
IT has been a month since I last blogged and during that time I have been learning to just enjoy life again.
I honestly am enjoying it - are there hard times -sure. No one has a perfect life.. but I am learning to appropriate more and more what it means to be one in Christ.
To know Him more and more intimately - to enjoy the little things like getting up early to drive kids to their new bus stops - it is an awesome time of the day to be with them and be sure to send them off on their day with a good word or prayer.
I have back at EBC for my second year and God is going to do some amazing things there this year!
How many of us actually know Jesus the way we want to know Him? I would suggest that you may be happy and content BUT DONT STAY THERE .. there is alwaysmore you can know .. there is always another step of intimacy... there is possibly that one part of life ( big or small) that you may still be keeping Him out of and handling that on your own as you think that He is not interested. OH that is not so my friend!
Part of my time this summer I have spent in conversations with my Pastor , trying to figure out where my gifting is leading me, where in my home church can it be used and further more, what is Father saying to me about my gifting.
If I was a man, that would be much simplier to answer.. most people in the church would be "come on then lets start walking along side you and raising you up to be a godly leader in this church" - but as a woman, there are differences - so what does that look like? hmm not sure yet.. but if you are reading this you can join me in praying that thru!
I completed a field ed placement this summer at Christian Horizons and I thoroughly enjoyed it! I loved it so much and currently praying how to be used within this ministry now.
I need to run, but I wanted to take the time to catch up and reflect on a few things...
Til next time
Jacqueline
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Father thank you that you are okay with where I am at!
I am in the process today of working through a few more of the hindrances that are getting in the way of my "abundant life". YES for the record, I am aware that I am being somewhat self absorbedm but that is not who I am - it is how I am acting (at this moment). But all that said, this is going to eventually lead to truth.. one way or the other.
One thing that is on my mind, imagine someone who cant seem to trust anyone (or perhaps refuses to trust because of past hurts); how then do you get through to him? how do you show that person the unconditional love of God that we all know (at least in our heads) is true. How do we as a person help show the person that God is NEVER going to give up..NEVER. It is sad when we watch someone we care about "appear like they are refusing" to see truth or cant seem to appropriate what it is that needs to be done.
What would you do? Is there a time limit at which you would grow weary? Perhaps after speaking truth ( and there seemed to be no change) you would eventually leave the person to figure it out on their own? BUT I am not convinced that is the answer.
Directing them to Jesus is the absolute best advice that can be given, but there has got to be more to it. (Now please know I am NOT saying there is more needed then Jesus)- what I am saying is that there is something in the way with some people. Something that is a BIG hindrance to understanding and accepting this "unconditional love and grace".
Now the most obvious and largest "hindrance" is Satan. We see all around us that he keeps getting in the way, and we can say without a doubt that he does NOT want any christian living an abundant life.
I am not sure what I would do if I was referring to a friend of mine who seemed to refuse to see and accept truth - but I have been on the receiving end of this. There are some things in this journey of mine that I cant seem to "get".
To all who "look on" it seems so easy. "Trust, forgive, know who you are" - but there is no one that would not want to do that if they were honestly seeking to be well, whole and living the abundant life. SOOO - what's up then?
My journey of healing has been one of so many ups and downs. Healing that I didnt even know needed to take place is being brought to the surface. I am not sorry for anything that is happening - for I know inside there are still some areas of my life that need Jesus' light shining in.
I am however frustrated with myself today - more then I have been in a long long time. Something that is so apparently "simple" and obvious to many of the people I love - seems to be so "complicated". It seems to be that many people have that "key" but the key I have will NOT open that door. But, I apparently have that same "KEY" - so what's wrong?
This I know -God is not giving up on us EVER, He is the one that will continue to reveal things, do the healing and open our eyes (clearing off the muck). I cant do it myself, my pastor, friends and any counsellor in the world can not do it.
Father show me more and more of you and your truth. Show me your love and the complete picture and yet the complete simplicity of your gospel. Help it to penetrate to the deepest regions of my being. Show me what it means to stop striving and trying and to simply 'BE'
til next time
Jacqueline
One thing that is on my mind, imagine someone who cant seem to trust anyone (or perhaps refuses to trust because of past hurts); how then do you get through to him? how do you show that person the unconditional love of God that we all know (at least in our heads) is true. How do we as a person help show the person that God is NEVER going to give up..NEVER. It is sad when we watch someone we care about "appear like they are refusing" to see truth or cant seem to appropriate what it is that needs to be done.
What would you do? Is there a time limit at which you would grow weary? Perhaps after speaking truth ( and there seemed to be no change) you would eventually leave the person to figure it out on their own? BUT I am not convinced that is the answer.
Directing them to Jesus is the absolute best advice that can be given, but there has got to be more to it. (Now please know I am NOT saying there is more needed then Jesus)- what I am saying is that there is something in the way with some people. Something that is a BIG hindrance to understanding and accepting this "unconditional love and grace".
Now the most obvious and largest "hindrance" is Satan. We see all around us that he keeps getting in the way, and we can say without a doubt that he does NOT want any christian living an abundant life.
I am not sure what I would do if I was referring to a friend of mine who seemed to refuse to see and accept truth - but I have been on the receiving end of this. There are some things in this journey of mine that I cant seem to "get".
To all who "look on" it seems so easy. "Trust, forgive, know who you are" - but there is no one that would not want to do that if they were honestly seeking to be well, whole and living the abundant life. SOOO - what's up then?
My journey of healing has been one of so many ups and downs. Healing that I didnt even know needed to take place is being brought to the surface. I am not sorry for anything that is happening - for I know inside there are still some areas of my life that need Jesus' light shining in.
I am however frustrated with myself today - more then I have been in a long long time. Something that is so apparently "simple" and obvious to many of the people I love - seems to be so "complicated". It seems to be that many people have that "key" but the key I have will NOT open that door. But, I apparently have that same "KEY" - so what's wrong?
This I know -God is not giving up on us EVER, He is the one that will continue to reveal things, do the healing and open our eyes (clearing off the muck). I cant do it myself, my pastor, friends and any counsellor in the world can not do it.
Father show me more and more of you and your truth. Show me your love and the complete picture and yet the complete simplicity of your gospel. Help it to penetrate to the deepest regions of my being. Show me what it means to stop striving and trying and to simply 'BE'
til next time
Jacqueline
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Thoughts from the Leadership Conference
This past week has been an interesting one. Father is continuing His work in me.I went from going away to a conference, to not going, to then the night before -packing to go and also deciding to take my two children with me.(Talk about being impulsive - but for the record they did GREAT and I am already thinking about one in the spring I would love to take them too!)
I attended the simucast Willow Creek Leadership Conference with a few other people from my church. It was a really organized and well done conference with many many people in attendance. As always I had come to some of my own goals going in to the conference but that fell to the wayside the very first morning.
Father had other plans and even though I went into the conference with a head packed full of other issues, concerns and items from other "categories" of my life - I did at times have a hard time always concentratinge (yes I admit I should have turned off the blackberry- however I needed to be able to be reached by my children if they would have drowned in the pool or something!)- Father was able to speak to me and to shine more of HIS light (in more of the dark places) - despite the distractions!
But in the end it has turned out ok. I realised that I could change nothing about what was going on back home with family, friends or issues with the selling of my house. I didnt have to respond to all the emails about various issues and concerns and that was ok.
So - What did I learn? Here are a few:
1. Do we stop to see the potential of ALL people? or have we labelled some "misfits" or "they will never change"?
Father reminded me that not all of the healing done in Jesus ministry was "instantanious". There were some sick for many years and then there were some who were healed in a moment. BUT regardless, there is a plan for good for each and every person! Do we stop to think about that? and then, do we ask Father if there is a part we are to play in that person's life? or do we treat them like in the story of the good samaritan and busily walk past leaving the "dirty work" for someone else?
2. KNOTS and Mistakes OR a beautiful picture?
When people look at the tapestry of your masterpiece (that is the picture of your life's journey so far) do they see a beautiful picture? or mostly knots? Are you okay with people seeing the mistakes?
Father showed me again this week that I am SO concerned about the picture of what other people see that it is getting in the way of what it is He wants to do.
I have tried and tried to make the mistakes look "not so obvious". I have been ashamed of the pain and the tears of regrets. I have been "working" so hard on that same treadmill .. and still getting no where. But here's the thing Father showed me this week (Again!!)
a. Jesus - He came and paid the price - so that the shame is gone- why do we carry it still? its been dealt with - do we not want to be well?
b. ALL my mistakes and pains ARE part of my journey! This in turn makes my ENTIRE journey one that people can look at and observe.
Wes Stafford (From the organization Compassion) shared his story of how when he wrote his book about his passion for caring for the little ones. He was challenged and encouraged to tell the WHY. Why was he so passionate? where did the passion and determination to help come from? He shared a very painful story and it was during that story that I was touched SO deeply. Yes his story was painful, yes it brought up alot of sadness and memories for myself and MANY others in the room BUT more importantly was the encouragement that it is our painful journey that people can relate too.
It may very well be the "knots and mistakes" that we are trying to "hide' and "fix up" (or hope that noone ever finds out about) that in fact are the very things that may help reach someone else.
3. HUDDLE or "IN THE GAME"
Harvey Carey shared a GREAT illustration about paying a great price for tickets. We buy the tickets, we go to the game, we are excited and pumped for it to start and out comes the team. We watch the team go into the huddle to plan and strategize, we wait and we wait. Ten minutes goes by ( still in the huddle), 20 minutes go by ( still in the huddle) and after about half and hour , they break from the huddle ( ok great now there is going to be a game played!) BUT wait a second, they are leaving the field ... where's the game? who's going to play? (I just spent alot of money on those tickets - somebody better be playing a game!)
Is the church and other ministries being like this? are we so busy in our comfortable little "huddles" that we are missing the game?
Did someone not pay a pretty big price for a game to be played? Did Jesus Christ not pay the price? We were challenged to remember we are not in the "pregame" - this is it folks. We have a responsibility to the world around us: To love, to evangelize, to be be Jesus and we had better get out of huddles! We are not called to be comfortable, to make it all about us - we are to be obedient!
4. WOMEN IN LEADERSHIP
I will be honest, I still do not have many answers. HOWEVER, what I was most relieved with (thanks to Nancy Beech and her book "Gifted To Lead") is that Father did NOT make a mistake when he gave out the gift of leadership to me.
For so many years I have felt like I had to hide this gift. I thought I had to pretend I didnt know how to do something, I had to let others make the decisions and I was simply going to be the one who mailed the letters at the end of the day.
PLEASE dont get me wrong, I am not talking about taking over the Pope's role (GRIN), I am still working thru the whole headship roles and what that looks like in the home and in the church. I also am still waiting on Father to reveal to me what exactly did Paul mean ( besides women shut your mouth in church).
BUT what I am so encouraged about is.. we can and do have the ability to lead in many different areas. For each of us, our calling and journey will be different; for some it is seasons; for some it is a quiet leader; for some it is leading by example but for others- it just might be up front and centre in a variety of different situations and that is ok. But the biggest thing I am walking away with is: there was no mistake in the handing out of gifts.
If you are a woman, I encourage you to read this book by Nanay Beech, if you are a man I encourage you to read this book. There are so many uplifting, thought provoking and challenging things in this book. How do you balance being a working mother? How much pressure have you put on yourself to be the "perfect mom"? Is being "good enough" ok with you? For the men - Are you ok with taking ideas from a woman? or what if she cries? is she then labelled too emotional? Is the soft part not the part that attracts you to her?
Anyways, I have tried to leave you with the main points. That's all for now.
Til next time,
Jacqueline
I attended the simucast Willow Creek Leadership Conference with a few other people from my church. It was a really organized and well done conference with many many people in attendance. As always I had come to some of my own goals going in to the conference but that fell to the wayside the very first morning.
Father had other plans and even though I went into the conference with a head packed full of other issues, concerns and items from other "categories" of my life - I did at times have a hard time always concentratinge (yes I admit I should have turned off the blackberry- however I needed to be able to be reached by my children if they would have drowned in the pool or something!)- Father was able to speak to me and to shine more of HIS light (in more of the dark places) - despite the distractions!
But in the end it has turned out ok. I realised that I could change nothing about what was going on back home with family, friends or issues with the selling of my house. I didnt have to respond to all the emails about various issues and concerns and that was ok.
So - What did I learn? Here are a few:
1. Do we stop to see the potential of ALL people? or have we labelled some "misfits" or "they will never change"?
Father reminded me that not all of the healing done in Jesus ministry was "instantanious". There were some sick for many years and then there were some who were healed in a moment. BUT regardless, there is a plan for good for each and every person! Do we stop to think about that? and then, do we ask Father if there is a part we are to play in that person's life? or do we treat them like in the story of the good samaritan and busily walk past leaving the "dirty work" for someone else?
2. KNOTS and Mistakes OR a beautiful picture?
When people look at the tapestry of your masterpiece (that is the picture of your life's journey so far) do they see a beautiful picture? or mostly knots? Are you okay with people seeing the mistakes?
Father showed me again this week that I am SO concerned about the picture of what other people see that it is getting in the way of what it is He wants to do.
I have tried and tried to make the mistakes look "not so obvious". I have been ashamed of the pain and the tears of regrets. I have been "working" so hard on that same treadmill .. and still getting no where. But here's the thing Father showed me this week (Again!!)
a. Jesus - He came and paid the price - so that the shame is gone- why do we carry it still? its been dealt with - do we not want to be well?
b. ALL my mistakes and pains ARE part of my journey! This in turn makes my ENTIRE journey one that people can look at and observe.
Wes Stafford (From the organization Compassion) shared his story of how when he wrote his book about his passion for caring for the little ones. He was challenged and encouraged to tell the WHY. Why was he so passionate? where did the passion and determination to help come from? He shared a very painful story and it was during that story that I was touched SO deeply. Yes his story was painful, yes it brought up alot of sadness and memories for myself and MANY others in the room BUT more importantly was the encouragement that it is our painful journey that people can relate too.
It may very well be the "knots and mistakes" that we are trying to "hide' and "fix up" (or hope that noone ever finds out about) that in fact are the very things that may help reach someone else.
3. HUDDLE or "IN THE GAME"
Harvey Carey shared a GREAT illustration about paying a great price for tickets. We buy the tickets, we go to the game, we are excited and pumped for it to start and out comes the team. We watch the team go into the huddle to plan and strategize, we wait and we wait. Ten minutes goes by ( still in the huddle), 20 minutes go by ( still in the huddle) and after about half and hour , they break from the huddle ( ok great now there is going to be a game played!) BUT wait a second, they are leaving the field ... where's the game? who's going to play? (I just spent alot of money on those tickets - somebody better be playing a game!)
Is the church and other ministries being like this? are we so busy in our comfortable little "huddles" that we are missing the game?
Did someone not pay a pretty big price for a game to be played? Did Jesus Christ not pay the price? We were challenged to remember we are not in the "pregame" - this is it folks. We have a responsibility to the world around us: To love, to evangelize, to be be Jesus and we had better get out of huddles! We are not called to be comfortable, to make it all about us - we are to be obedient!
4. WOMEN IN LEADERSHIP
I will be honest, I still do not have many answers. HOWEVER, what I was most relieved with (thanks to Nancy Beech and her book "Gifted To Lead") is that Father did NOT make a mistake when he gave out the gift of leadership to me.
For so many years I have felt like I had to hide this gift. I thought I had to pretend I didnt know how to do something, I had to let others make the decisions and I was simply going to be the one who mailed the letters at the end of the day.
PLEASE dont get me wrong, I am not talking about taking over the Pope's role (GRIN), I am still working thru the whole headship roles and what that looks like in the home and in the church. I also am still waiting on Father to reveal to me what exactly did Paul mean ( besides women shut your mouth in church).
BUT what I am so encouraged about is.. we can and do have the ability to lead in many different areas. For each of us, our calling and journey will be different; for some it is seasons; for some it is a quiet leader; for some it is leading by example but for others- it just might be up front and centre in a variety of different situations and that is ok. But the biggest thing I am walking away with is: there was no mistake in the handing out of gifts.
If you are a woman, I encourage you to read this book by Nanay Beech, if you are a man I encourage you to read this book. There are so many uplifting, thought provoking and challenging things in this book. How do you balance being a working mother? How much pressure have you put on yourself to be the "perfect mom"? Is being "good enough" ok with you? For the men - Are you ok with taking ideas from a woman? or what if she cries? is she then labelled too emotional? Is the soft part not the part that attracts you to her?
Anyways, I have tried to leave you with the main points. That's all for now.
Til next time,
Jacqueline
Friday, July 31, 2009
Looking back ...
Well, I was just rereading some of my past blogs. There seems to be this constant theme ... the theme of trying to figure out HOW to life this abundant life .. HOW to get over sad feelings .. HOW to parent .. HOW to stop needing a crutch .. HOW to be well
I FINALLY got it .. are you ready? here is the answer ..... " JESUS! "
There is not a magic formula, there is not one special verse that will make everything be smooth at all times .. BUT .. .when we trust HIM , when we cease leaning on our own understanding ( and our own interpretation of the events that just happened or the words just spoken to us), when we stop trying to "fix ourselves" - when we simply LOOK to Jesus.
Today I am struggling with how many times I say things that are maybe not spoken the most elequently, or maybe my message has been misinterpreted .. or someone has falsely labelled my motives . (Can I be honest.. that bothers me SO much)...
BUT then I took a few moments and I was thinking that in this too .. I am fellowshipping in the sufferings of Jesus.
How many times was Jesus falsely accused, or someone told lies about him? or maybe his motives were falsely interpreted?
Father, help us to rest in you and not make the goal to be to "fix it" or "be better".
Help us to look to you.. to be constantly plugged in to you and to see things from your perspective in the midst of our own feelings and subjectivity.
I thank you to that it is ok to be upset and sad but I pray too that we can see it from your side and to trust that you are in control and that you will handle it.
That's all for now.. keeping looking up friends
Jacqueline
I FINALLY got it .. are you ready? here is the answer ..... " JESUS! "
There is not a magic formula, there is not one special verse that will make everything be smooth at all times .. BUT .. .when we trust HIM , when we cease leaning on our own understanding ( and our own interpretation of the events that just happened or the words just spoken to us), when we stop trying to "fix ourselves" - when we simply LOOK to Jesus.
Today I am struggling with how many times I say things that are maybe not spoken the most elequently, or maybe my message has been misinterpreted .. or someone has falsely labelled my motives . (Can I be honest.. that bothers me SO much)...
BUT then I took a few moments and I was thinking that in this too .. I am fellowshipping in the sufferings of Jesus.
How many times was Jesus falsely accused, or someone told lies about him? or maybe his motives were falsely interpreted?
Father, help us to rest in you and not make the goal to be to "fix it" or "be better".
Help us to look to you.. to be constantly plugged in to you and to see things from your perspective in the midst of our own feelings and subjectivity.
I thank you to that it is ok to be upset and sad but I pray too that we can see it from your side and to trust that you are in control and that you will handle it.
That's all for now.. keeping looking up friends
Jacqueline
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Giver or the Gifts??
So, I had a thought the other day and wrote a letter to my friends at EBC ( Bible College I am enrolled in). Thought I would share my thought as it pertains to many of us as well...
I do appreciate feedback and comments by the way!
Can you believe it.. in less then two months we will be in classes again (well those of us who are students) I trust your summers have been one of growth and maturity and also of coming ot know Jesus more and more intimately. Some of you Father has blessed you with a job, soem of you are in a paid position at a Christian camp or ministry and others Father has decided to this point He would like you to rest and let HIM be the one to provide for you and take care of you. I have started reading a book this week 'Pressures Off " by Larry Crabb.. what a good book. I have not gotten too far into it yet, but lets just say I have been challenged in my thinking and beliefs. Crabb goes on to suggest that many christians only "do the right things" because of what blessings will be ahead or given to them. ITs kind of like the OT retribution theory right? If we disobey we get crap .. and we believe if we live a god pleasing life then we have good things to come .. if we read our bibles every day and pray continually ( which please know I am in no way putting down .. asI need to thirst and feed on his word and keep getting to know my Groom!!) - however I do see that we do sometimes feel like "God owes us" ... and sometimes - some of us .. are more in love with the blessings we have in Christ Jesus then we are with the blesser and His son.
Well this is what Father has been showing me as of late. I am so glad that Father keeps shining HIS light into the dark rooms of our lives and hearts.
I am praying regularily for you all
In His hands
Jacqueline
I do appreciate feedback and comments by the way!
Can you believe it.. in less then two months we will be in classes again (well those of us who are students) I trust your summers have been one of growth and maturity and also of coming ot know Jesus more and more intimately. Some of you Father has blessed you with a job, soem of you are in a paid position at a Christian camp or ministry and others Father has decided to this point He would like you to rest and let HIM be the one to provide for you and take care of you. I have started reading a book this week 'Pressures Off " by Larry Crabb.. what a good book. I have not gotten too far into it yet, but lets just say I have been challenged in my thinking and beliefs. Crabb goes on to suggest that many christians only "do the right things" because of what blessings will be ahead or given to them. ITs kind of like the OT retribution theory right? If we disobey we get crap .. and we believe if we live a god pleasing life then we have good things to come .. if we read our bibles every day and pray continually ( which please know I am in no way putting down .. asI need to thirst and feed on his word and keep getting to know my Groom!!) - however I do see that we do sometimes feel like "God owes us" ... and sometimes - some of us .. are more in love with the blessings we have in Christ Jesus then we are with the blesser and His son.
Well this is what Father has been showing me as of late. I am so glad that Father keeps shining HIS light into the dark rooms of our lives and hearts.
I am praying regularily for you all
In His hands
Jacqueline
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
ok, first let me apologise if there is anyone who has wondered what happened to the blogging. I have no excuse except to say - I stopped for a while.
Life is busy and life is hard right now around my home .. but I have reminded as of late that it is MUCH harder when we do it on our own and we forget how very loved and valued we are.
How might we answer that person who makes a snide comment about something we have said or done - IF we remembered how loved we were by Father?
How would we handle it when things happen that hurt IF we remembered how loved we were?
Circumstances will not necessarily change BUT there is peace in knowing that FATHER is in control and EVERYTHING from HIM is love and out of love for us.
A thought I was reminded of - when Jesus was in the garden, it was AFTER he surrendered that Father gave HIM strength to endure the cross. Before he surrender he was in agony .. at the very thought of what was ahead.
Surrender my friend, let go of the reigns and then strength will come ( strength will come as we wait upon the Lord right??)
Does that mean that it feels good and that it doesnt hurt? nope. That is beside the point and I am tired of people trying to tell others whether they have a right to be sad or upset.. IT DOESNT MATTER ..you feel how you feel. Just dont let them dictate your thought life and what you do.
Ok, enough of my vent for today ..
til next time
Jacqueline
Life is busy and life is hard right now around my home .. but I have reminded as of late that it is MUCH harder when we do it on our own and we forget how very loved and valued we are.
How might we answer that person who makes a snide comment about something we have said or done - IF we remembered how loved we were by Father?
How would we handle it when things happen that hurt IF we remembered how loved we were?
Circumstances will not necessarily change BUT there is peace in knowing that FATHER is in control and EVERYTHING from HIM is love and out of love for us.
A thought I was reminded of - when Jesus was in the garden, it was AFTER he surrendered that Father gave HIM strength to endure the cross. Before he surrender he was in agony .. at the very thought of what was ahead.
Surrender my friend, let go of the reigns and then strength will come ( strength will come as we wait upon the Lord right??)
Does that mean that it feels good and that it doesnt hurt? nope. That is beside the point and I am tired of people trying to tell others whether they have a right to be sad or upset.. IT DOESNT MATTER ..you feel how you feel. Just dont let them dictate your thought life and what you do.
Ok, enough of my vent for today ..
til next time
Jacqueline
Friday, March 27, 2009
Well, another week has gone by and Father has been most relentless in his love and pursuit of me. I find that it is when I spend time alone with Him, that is when He can get through to me best. It is when I put everything else aside, and just listein.
Yeah, sometimes I dont like what He he all has to say to me, and sometimes the people he uses to talk to me dont say things that I like to hear, but I am being real and God is not condemning me about that.
Yesterday, someone sent me an email and in that email, mentioned that it is crappy and it does suck, and you know what?? Yeah it does and I can say that and not be worried about being struck down. HOWEVER, I can choose to see God in everything, and I can be assured that as a child of God He is never letting go of me, He will walk right along side me every single step of the way, and He will if I let Him, use it all for HIS good, to conform me into the image of HIS son.
I am praying right now about a few different things, and I am waiting on God to tell me HIS answer.. so in the mean time I will continue to be honest, open and real.
Life is hard sometimes, the trials that are allowed by a loving Father do hurt, and sometimes we don't want to do it any more- but there is hope and it is that that keeps me hanging on.
Til next time
Jacqueline
Yeah, sometimes I dont like what He he all has to say to me, and sometimes the people he uses to talk to me dont say things that I like to hear, but I am being real and God is not condemning me about that.
Yesterday, someone sent me an email and in that email, mentioned that it is crappy and it does suck, and you know what?? Yeah it does and I can say that and not be worried about being struck down. HOWEVER, I can choose to see God in everything, and I can be assured that as a child of God He is never letting go of me, He will walk right along side me every single step of the way, and He will if I let Him, use it all for HIS good, to conform me into the image of HIS son.
I am praying right now about a few different things, and I am waiting on God to tell me HIS answer.. so in the mean time I will continue to be honest, open and real.
Life is hard sometimes, the trials that are allowed by a loving Father do hurt, and sometimes we don't want to do it any more- but there is hope and it is that that keeps me hanging on.
Til next time
Jacqueline
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